[Ritsuka doesn't mean for it to happen, of course not, but his eyes go glassy with sympathetic tears.
Is this how Riku feels when he looks at me, when he says I'm hurting myself because I won't eat? Riku had accused him of refusing to eat and making himself sick because Soubi had gone away, and while that wasn't exactly the situation, suddenly Ritsuka understood that look of helpless frustration on his boyfriend's face.
His throat is taut. He's afraid if he speaks that a sob will escape. He hasn't cried in over a year, and he absolutely cannot allow it to happen now. He must remain calm and rational.]
--I'm sorry. My other half is gone too. The thread that connects us doesn't go anywhere.
[Ritsuka swallows ineffectively.]
But he could come back any day. He could come back tomorrow.
Until then, you're not alone. I'm here. You have lots of friends. Please don't hurt yourself.
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Date: 2011-11-06 09:28 am (UTC)Is this how Riku feels when he looks at me, when he says I'm hurting myself because I won't eat? Riku had accused him of refusing to eat and making himself sick because Soubi had gone away, and while that wasn't exactly the situation, suddenly Ritsuka understood that look of helpless frustration on his
boyfriend's face.His throat is taut. He's afraid if he speaks that a sob will escape. He hasn't cried in over a year, and he absolutely cannot allow it to happen now. He must remain calm and rational.]
--I'm sorry. My other half is gone too. The thread that connects us doesn't go anywhere.
[Ritsuka swallows ineffectively.]
But he could come back any day. He could come back tomorrow.
Until then, you're not alone. I'm here. You have lots of friends. Please don't hurt yourself.
[A few tears escape down his cheeks.]